I enjoy a slice of cake as much as the next person. Chocolate cake is probably my favourite followed by banana. Having said that, I like cheesecake, muffins, pies and all sorts of pastries too! I also know how calorific these deceitful beautiful creations of sugar are, so I tend not to over indulge.

“You haven’t finished eating the cake I bought you a few days ago and I bought you another slice. You don’t like banana cake anymore?”

I looked up from the novel I was reading. I studied his face trying to work out what mood he was in. How could I ever betray cake by not liking it any longer?

“Well cakes are full of calories and those slices are quite thick. I usually cut it in half and eat the other piece another time. It’s too much to eat at one time.” I waited.

“But it’s like you don’t appreciate what I do for you?”

In my head I laughed out loud. I imagined how even more crazy toxic he would be if I became obese through indulging in cake eating! Then I had an idea.

“Oh I do appreciate it when you buy me cake. Thank you. I was just wondering if you would like to change it or maybe not buy cake for me so often.” He didn’t say anything so I continued. “Well I do like banana cake, but perhaps you could mix it up. Like maybe sometimes buy something healthier like an apple or some other fruit.”

“I’m your husband. I have a right to buy my wife anything I want.”

I looked at him amused. One thing I didn’t think he would do is hold me down and force cake down my throat. “Baby, you’re absolutely right”, and with that said, I returned my eyes to my book.

God loves to give to us. He grants us our wants and needs; oftentimes He gifts us too. He knows what we will use wisely, and the things which will cause us to stray from Him. He withholds and He blesses. Neither are we all blessed in the same way; it’s pointless to begrudge someone else their blessing. They have it for a reason, He knows why He didn’t give that particular thing to you.

It is one of the challenges of being a child of God. You find yourself asking “Why not me?” You covet the good things in life;  a godly spouse, children, a house, successful career, health, a reliable car. The list is endless. You can’t help but wonder if somehow God has forgotten about the desire of your heart. You pray about it, you plead, you bargain. Hope gives way to despair, you cry out of frustration and anger. The desire can become so consuming that you may even find yourself being resentful when others receive that which you yearn for during your time of ‘want crisis’. We grapple with trying to understand God’s reasoning. Perhaps this is our first mistake. Who can know the mind of He who is omniscient? His wisdom is far beyond ours, so how can we ever think of understanding it?  However, our understanding is such that because we  recognise the wisdom of God, we can accept that His reason for withholding is ultimately perfect. We then have a choice, we can complain against the flawless will of God or accept is impeccable judgement.

Have you ever come on anything quite like this extravagant generosity of God, this deep, deep wisdom? It’s way over our heads. We’ll never figure it out.

Is there anyone around who can explain God?
Anyone smart enough to tell him what to do?
Anyone who has done him such a huge favor
    that God has to ask his advice?

Everything comes from him;
Everything happens through him;
Everything ends up in him.
Always glory! Always praise!
    Yes. Yes. Yes.    

Romans 11: 33-36

The Message Bible

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