Nature & Nurture.

I raced through the front door and down the stairs. Where to now? Sigh. It was dark, not that night time had ever stopped me going anywhere before. I was wary and wasn’t in the mood for walking but I did need solitude. The back step! I eased myself down onto the concrete step. The warmth radiating from the step due to the day’s heat was quite comforting. The moon was out. A perfect glow on an imperfect world, in my marred life. Moonlight should be a colour scheme like monochrome or sepia. It has such particular tones and ambiguous tints. The breeze was genial. It’s mellow flow causing the leaves in the trees to gently rustle.

“You need to come inside now” he said. Sigh, paradise absconded leaving me feeling forsaken. Well I was going to have my seclusion for as long as I needed it. I don’t remember what the argument was about, but when I reminisce to that moment just before I ran, I recall feeling panicked. It felt like I was being squeezed. Air to my lungs slowed down, the breaths became deeper, quicker. I needed out now. He hadn’t laid a finger on me, but the manipulation of the emotionally abusive person is tantamount to the blow of the physical abuser. I wasn’t ready to go back inside. “I will when I’m ready to” I replied. “When will that be?” he asked. “When I’m ready” I said. We went back and forth, but I remained calm, my answer never changing. Eventually he retreated, but didn’t go inside. He was waiting. “I will come in when I’m ready. The longer you stay out here, the longer it will take me to be ready to come in”. The footsteps receded up the stairs. The door closed softly.

Now I could resume my fling with nature. The warmth radiating from the step due to the day’s heat was quite comforting. The moon was out. A perfect glow on an imperfect world, in my marred life. Moonlight should be a colour scheme like monochrome or sepia. It has such particular tones and ambiguous tints. The breeze was genial. It’s mellow flow causing the leaves in the trees to gently rustle. I could faintly hear the lullaby of the rhythmical waves from the sea below. The glow of the night, the caress of the breeze, the resonance of the sea; thank you mother nature for being the perfect date that night.

But ask the animals what they think – let them teach you; let the birds tell you what’s going on. Put your ear to the earth – learn the basics. Listen – the fish in the ocean will tell you their stories. Isn’t it clear that they all know and agree that God is sovereign, that he holds all things in his hand . . . Job 12: 7 – 10 The Message Bible.

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